New Moon - Why it was worth it

I went to see New Moon with a friend last night. I have to say the best part for me was before the movie, when the middle aged mom sitting next to me turned to her little girl and said, "Do you have to go potty before the movie starts? Because I'm not leaving Edward."
That made my night, even though some snotty teenagers, the kind that make me want to hate my own generation, came swaggering in ten minutes into the movie talking and laughing and acting like they owned the place, completely disregarding the dozens of people that paid around eight bucks per person to see the blasted movie. I could go on, but that would be a whole other blog.
All in all, New Moon was definitely better than Twilight. Better music, (A great score by Alexandre Desplat, who also did the music for The Golden Compass, along with other movies.) and also a more interesting plot.

Going in, I was concerned about the wolves, because if they were the size of normal wolves and not the size of horses as is the case in the books, the movie would be pretty lame - but I was pleasantly surprised, as they were actually quite huge, and very ferocious. Definitely no disappointment there. Also, bravo to Taylor Lautner for bulking up like crazy. I don't want to "bake cookies on his stomach" like the crazy Jacob fan from the SNL skit, but geeze, he's a veritable beast, the kid deserves the credit he gets.
I'm not a twihard in any sense of the word, but seeing New Moon definitely solidified my opinion of wolfpack over vampire coven any day. Too many reasons why to list. (Does that mean that I choose bestiality over necrophilia? Egads! Er, team Mike Newton all the way... :P) One being that Edward is moody and overprotective and it's annoying to me that he sparkles in the sun like a Tiffany's ring.

On a final note, Edward and Bella (though they be fictional characters) definitely do deserve each other;

Bella: "If you're worried about my soul then take it, I don't want it without you."
Edward: "You are my life now, I don't know how to live without you."

*Eyeroll* See what I mean?

Anyway, it was worth it for the music and the wolves. :)

Notes on love from an 18 year old September

"Her arms aren't empty as she reaches for him, something invisible, untouchable, unknowable, fills them. Something vulnerable and opening, as she opens her very self to him, her very spirit for him to accept. He is worthy, she believes this with all of her heart, and so she is trusting, trusting enough to let him into her secret world where he could do so much damage, damage that was done once before, damage that has only just healed. Now she has only just recovered, and yet she opens herself again, what of this? Does she trust so in loves path, to put herself right in the middle of destructions? How so? Why? Because she loves, and love is deep, and love is trusting. Because love, the thing that broke her, was the thing that healed her. That which crushed her, has raised her up again. That which tore her in two, has made her whole, and she has no regrets."

I found this in a journal from early September. I'm not sure if I was making it up, or if I was talking about myself. Because at that time, I was getting ready to open myself to the idea of loving someone. Conscious or not, the possibility that this is about me, is quite high. Now that I am several months older and several experiences wiser, I see it a few degrees differently. Being open to love is a wonderful thing, but treating it with great care and even greater sincerity, is a better approach than childlike naivety. But as the piece says, I am whole - and I have no regrets.

Sorry for the meloncholy post, whoever may be reading. :]

Lessons learned lately

Things I've learned lately


1. Never say "that's weird" or "that's stupid" unless you try it first. TRY IT FIRST. You may like it, or even love it, so don't knock it before you know.

2. Happiness doesn't always find you on its own, sometimes you have to go out in search of it.

4. Unconventional doesn't automatically equal "bad". In fact, unconventional can equal pretty dang awesome.

5. Be quick to listen, ready to understand, and slow to judge.

6. Look at things differently. Make changes. Even seemingly insignificant ones can make big differences.

7. The people that love you will stick around no matter what crazy junk you do or how eccentric you are. (They may tease you about it, but they will stick around.) ;)

8. Nothing is as hard as it seems if you take it one step at a time. If you find yourself dreaming of climbing mount Everest, then do it - no matter how hard it will be or how long it will take you. Your desire to accomplish will make every step its own small victory, and you will reach the top a different person than when you began at the very bottom. Even if people around you suggest that you back down, and even if the mountain itself stares you in the face and tells you you don't have what it takes, don't buy into it. They aren't you, they don't know what you can do, they therefore have no idea what they are talking about and should be promptly ignored.

9. Knowledge is power - and it is a valuable privilege. Treat it as such.

10. Take nothing for granted. Appreciate what you have and what you love every day that you have it.

11. Don't waste time being afraid, you can control your own fear. Cotidie damnatur qui semper timet - The man who is constantly in fear is every day condemned.

12. Don't underestimate your own capabilities. If you think you can, you're right. If you think you can't - you're right. You can do more than you imagine.

13. If everything was easy, life would be super boring.

14. The devil will talk you into a corner with his lies until all you can do is cower like a child, but you can and must fight your way out of it. Don't let him keep you there, I've been there far too often.